It's All About ME!

The Hard Road

It's been a while again, and a few things have happened and a few things haven't happened.

Firstly, what has happened. I bought a new clothes dryer so now we can get things dry for the up-coming winter months without needing to hang them outside for 3-4 days hoping that the birds won't crap all over them so they'd need washing again.

I did have a problem with my internet as well. That sucked. Unfortunately it was my own fault, so I can't even blame it on anyone else. Damn shame that... I was trying to experiment with the modem so I could run a gateway computer. Seems that was a silly idea that didn't work quite properly at the moment. So, I tried to get the modem back to how it was before. Now THAT was the silly idea. Everything was going OK until I remembered that I'd completely forgotten my username from my ISP. I mean really, how stupid is that?

It's Dad's birthday next weekend, and I have got no idea of what to get for him. It'll probably be a trip to the bottleshop again, but that's always a great fall-back for birthdays. I don't feel so bad though. No one else has any idea of what to get him, and even he doesn't have any ideas, so it's not like I'm missing something obvious.

Work has slowed down a bit, thankfully. I couldn't keep going the way that I was, and I'm now resenting the place a lot less then I was a well, and I think that's better all around. I'm supposed to be learning some new stuff soon, so that will be a little bit interesting. It's all going to be a web-based (mainly) language called Python, so it'll be useful.

Now, what didn't happen...

I didn't win lotto and start a life of luxury. I didn't get any big cash bonuses anywhere. I didn't get a new key for my car. I didn't meet the girl of my dreams. So, it's been a very standard time for me really.

The only thing that's been going on is that I have been in contact with a girl for close to three months now, and as much as she's great, she's being very sure to keep me at arms length so that I can't hurt her any more. I haven't even met her in real life, and all because of her trust issues from previous times. I'm not proud of it, but a few things came to a bit of a head on the weekend, and I've told her what I think I needed to. I do want to make an effort and see where things go, but not if I'm going to be the only one that's doing that. If she can't let me in even a little bit, there's just no point in me bashing my head against a brick wall trying to make things right.

I'm still feeling like the whole love-life thing is passing me by. There's a lot of times that I'm happy that it is, because the last thing I want is to be "stuck" with some bitch that I hate because I got lonely and horny and I thought that was the best that I could do. I'm also not looking for perfection. My best friends partner has afriend that would be just it if I was, but I couldn't stand someone so shallow that they need 1-2 hours to do make up and hair to go down to the local shops. To be honest, I've seen this girl a few years back without the make up, natural hair and without the $500 heels... and she looked so much better as her natural self then she ever did when she was plastered up like a Barbie doll. Just my own personal taste though.

Well, that's it for now. You never know what will come of this all. I'll try to keep things updated on what's happening with the girl that's not actually in my life, but depending on how that goes, I might be to drunk and remorseful to do much. But then again, you just never know...

posted by Michael @ 9:21 AM